Scary things happening in our world

I'm sitting here at the hospital as I type this. I've had so many mixed emotions over everything that has happened in the past twenty-four hours. I feel like my life is just turned upside down. Things like this aren't supposed to happen. Everything is supposed to be perfect. Well I know that isn't true but I wish it were. I was really concerned yesterday about Genevieve because she was throwing up all of her meals and wanted to be constantly held. This wasn't normal behavior for her. Her stomach was still way distended and I wasn't feeling like the treatment was helping her at all. I decided I would take her to the doctor that day because I felt like something was very wrong and that I needed to be urgent about her care. Well I went to see another doctor at the same clinic because our doctor was out of town. She was very concerned once she heard me explain things and looked at Gen's tummy. She sent me over to the ER at Primary Children's Hospital. In the back of my mind I didn't feel like this could be happening. This was only supposed to be a little gas that would pass! I called Eric and he came to the hospital after telling him that I was headed to the ER. Well to make a long story short we were admitted last night and Gen has been put through the wringer. She has had so many tests done but nothing has come back abnormal. She has a ton of gas built up in her system that she just can't pass by herself. They are currently waiting back on a biopsy to rule out Hirschbrung's disease. I go back and forth on whether or not I hope she has it. It means that she can be treated and have no long term lasting effects. If she doesn't I don't think the doctors' know what it could be. That scares me. It could be something way worse than this disease. I wish there just wasn't anything wrong with her. It is miserable watching her scream because they won't let her eat. Right now she has just cried herself to sleep. She looks so sad and miserable half the time.