Dear

Dear friend,

If you read my last post I am sorry that you had to endure all that emotion. At the time I was just poring out my heart but after I went back and reread it tonight I realize that I maybe should have edited it so that all you who are diligent blog stalkers of mine who don't know me too personally didn't have to endure such harshness. Right now I am basking in happiness and I would love to tell you all about it but I will have to wait till another time and until a certain someone tells me it is alright to mention them. You see tonight the before mentioned friend called to talk to me because she had read my blog and she knew that she was the friend I was talking about. We had a marvelous conversation that lasted 1:21:15. Some of the best 1:21:15 that I have spent in my life. I think we may have our relationship on the mend :). Let me be the first to let you know that I have good friends. I thought I would write them a letter and let them know some wonderful things about them. I also wanted to give this certain someone a hint of what is about to come.

Dear certain someone friend,

I felt bad that I had to hang up with you so fast. I probably could have spent the whole night talking to you. I thought it was pretty hilarious that you felt that I should in nowise take what you said to me as a reason to become bestest best friends with you again. If anything it made me want to even more. Today had not been the greatest day for me I must say because I wasn't feeling too well, I was doubting my mothering skills, and I didn't know why the Lord had felt that I could handle this new calling he had given me. When you called I was ecstatic and I felt the spirit of the Lord come over me and I felt as if some patches were sewn over my wounded heart. I just wanted to let you know that I love you and am truly sorry that you are going through a rough time in your life and I can't be there right this second to help you out. Here is a letter to you to hopefully tide you over till the next time we talk. Here are a few of the things that you have missed and would love to tell you about in greater depth.
1) Jeremiah. I don't know if you remember but he actually set Eric and I up and is the reason we are now married. He's still not married. Any surprise? Thought not. *now that I say this watch he'll bring home a wife*
2) Gen scared me to death when she was first born because she didn't have that gut wrenching cry you hear on all those movies and medical shows. I was convinced that she had come out dead until she was laid in my arms and looked up at me with those big eyes of her almost saying "what is all the commotion? I'm here." I still didn't get to hear her first cries until the middle of the night after she was born.
3) My dad came to visit when Gen arrived. It was...nice. I don't know there were a lot of hard feelings about it when he was here but I have come to realize I enjoyed his visit.
4) I have experienced a lot of firsts since you were gone. First nosebleed(while pregnant), first charly horse(also while pregnant! gosh why didn't people tell me how painful they are), my engagement, my marriage, Gen's birth, first really embarrassing moment(right after Gen was born and while my brother and Dad were visiting. Needless to say it involved milk and a shirt), and first college graduation (I was going to ask you about whether or not you had walked this last spring. I looked for your name in the book but didn't find one. I was very disappointed).
5) I really wanted to ask you to be one of my bridesmaids along with our other roommate, Heather, and Randi. Since our relationship was on the rocks I was scared that you would
laugh in my face and scorn me. I did the only logical thing and didn't have any. (I hope you don't feel bad about this but I wanted to let you know that I really considered it and I probably should have ten we might not have been in this mess).
6) I also have some things I regret that I did after we parted ways (for maybe a millisecond I tried to tell myself that I shouldn't regret my actions because I had made a conscious decision to make them and that I just needed to learn from them and move on. I learned that this was not the case you need to have regrets because otherwise you don't remember what you did wrong and you didn't grow spiritually).

7) This was something I found that I thought would be humorous to you to. Did you know that this toy company came out with a breastfeeding doll. I could understand some of their logic behind making it, but really? I understand that breastfeeding is considered to be the better of the two options but I just don't see people running out and buying this toy. They also made mention that it was both useful for both boys and girls. Now come on could you imagine buying one for your son to play with? On the other hand the Le leche League would be proud.

8) Eric and I want to go to Brazil when they are hosting the Olympics in 2016 (You and Gabe should come with us)

9) I am trying to learn Portuguese but am struggling to do a program on my own. Do you want to take a class with me at SLCC if they offer one?

I would go on and on but I need to go to bed. Hope you have a better week. Talk to you soon.

-Me
P.S. Sorry about the novel

Anne,
You have become a great friend to me and I really love our chats. I am sorry that you have to go through the trials that you are going through. Know that I love you and am always there for you when ever you need it.
1) Thank you for always being there for me whenever I needed you. Thank you for the subway sandwich and your visit to the hospital. Thank you for asking for help when I couldn't do it for myself. Let us beat this trial of yours, yes?
2) When I first started getting to know you I didn't think that I could ever be a close friend with you. It just didn't seem like we had much in common. You have proved me very wrong. I am very glad of it.

I'll see you tomorrow...or more like today to go shopping. We'll definitely have some great fun at girls camp with the young women.

-Me

Amber,
Thank you for all your support since I had Gen. It is really nice to have friends who are in the same boat as you.
1) Thank you for all your advice
2) Please let us get together sometime and become better friends. Yes?

-Me

Sorry for the long post if you made it this long.